It’s been so long since my last posting. Life happens. I’ve been meaning to write but writer’s block. Last night I got word that my grandfather was in the hospital…he has been suffering for so long with Alzheimer’s Disease. I’ve watched the main that helped raise me slowly deteriorate. He once seemed so strong so giant like…now he is frail child-like. He is heavy has been on my spirit heavy. I think about him constantly all the lessons that I learned from him he was my best friend growing up and now he can barely speak to me, let alone open his eyes. It’s fucking heart breaking. Every time I see him my heart breaks a tiny bit more. This is the man who is responsible for my love of baking, we used to bake together every week. And now….I am praying that I have more time with him. When I moved from home I haven’t seen him as much, but if God just grants me more time I will do whatever I can to spend time with him to be there for him.
Today I just need more time for my grandfather.
This is a time I wish they had a ‘dislike’ button; not because of your writing but because of the topic. I see it every day at work but that does not make it easier. His body may not respond any more but his spirit is soaring high knowing that you are there with him. Peace.