It has come to my attention that my grandmother has been saying horrible things about me. Just when I thought that we were patching things up and trying to move forward she starts at it again. I have come to my breaking point. I love that woman dearly but as of right now I cannot fuck with her. Since my grandfather has taken terribly ill I have to see her, but I really do not know what to say to her. Any word that comes out of my mouth gets skewed and it because a big argument I moved out to avoid the drama to give her some space.
Honestly, I feel like a lot of her aggression towards me is because I left. My mother left and started her life, my uncle is gone with his family, and me…was I supposed to stay forever? Nevertheless, I did leave, that woman put me through pure hell and she doesn’t stop. She’s relentless. All of this extra bullshit has my head pounding and my heart heavy. All I want is to have my family back the way things used to be. But, so much shit has happened those days are long gone. I just have to adjust get used to it just being…me.
Today I am tired of the extra drama, unnecessary bullshit, and craziness that still tends to follow me. I am realizing that my grandmother will always be my grandmother and I should just take a step back. Let things marinate. Give it space. Give her space. Give myself some space. Because, I don’t want this knot in the pit of my stomach to turn to hate. I don’t want that. I love her but right now at this point in time I can’t fuck with her.
I understand completely honey. When things seem to get out of hand for you should take s step back and collect yourself. Set boundaries for yourself and grandmother and keep them. Boundaries are your special lityle self help in these situations. Take care you.
Thank you so much and you’re completely right. It’s hard having to set boundaries like that for someone you love. But, in this situation it has to be done. I appreciate your comment